Too many days when I can barely keep my eyes open and get through the next minute.
But I am so very tired.
Many of you reading get this way as well. This journey is so very long and the impact is far reaching yet so many don't seem to be interested at all. I realize that sometimes it can be too much to bear and with the routines and stresses of daily life. When do you ever get an opportunity to sit down, and just breathe?
I have run and walked and talked until I know my face has turned blue, but still I forge ahead.
I do this because there is this unnamed force within that just pushes me forward. It says I must continue, I can not give up. Let me be the first to say there are so many days when I just want to throw my hands up!
I just want to walk away.
Why shouldn't I, it hasn't happened to me. But, I can't there hasn't been a day when I've wanted to walk away and not thought about what else can be done to raise awareness, to help another woman that is fighting the unknown and has no idea what is coming her way.
I read your stories, I listen to you all share your experiences and the grief that you have suffered through and continue to do so and this is why I refuse am unable to just throw my hands up.
But I am so tired, I just need to rest.
But, I can't.
There is still so much to do so much to learn and to share.
I offend some, get offended and still I keep going.
Trying daily to reach just one more, share information, to participate in someone's event, take care of, go talk to, listen to one more, support one more.
I enjoy what I have committed myself to,
But I am so tired.